Diet NOT on point: UBBT and my M & M problem.

A few weeks ago I was tired and in a moment of weakness I bought a bag of M&Ms. This morning I'm up 10lbs on the scale. This is how it goes with me. Historically. I do really well with food choices. I eat pretty healthy overall. Then I give myself permission for a "treat" usually because I'm tired, stressed or sad. Feeling sorry for myself. Every single time, my self discipline goes right out the window. I think, " It's okay because I'm exercising more." I tell myself lies like, "This won't really affect my goals." Or most of the time I don't talk to myself at all. I just ignore it because I'm ashamed. I'm just feeding an emotion. Applying a salve to feeling worn out. I know that it doesn't help. I know the consequences, I'm in it right now and it is all too familiar. I know I'm not alone in this struggle! Food is medicine. Medicine can heal and it can also harm when used improperly. It's a slippery slope. So, I can sit here...or I can dust myself off and climb again. At least I know what trips me and sends me sliding.

Week 1 Numbers May 30 - Jun 5

Started back at 0 this week and kept a log in my planner. This will evolve as I add on but here is the basic set up.

Reality: Fell short of the goal numbers. Better planning will help.

Positive: I did push ups every day.

Back At Zero: Week 1 Round 3

I've been trying to find a way to get what I've done over the last year to count. Really, the last two years. Year and a half. That's when I froze. What I was doing up to that point was working. (Maybe that's why I froze. But that's another story for another time.) I just need to start over. I've been looking for a way to make it easier, because this test is very, very hard. So I looked...and I looked...and looked some more...all the while avoiding doing the work.

I've decided this: Stop looking for an easier way! Just do the work.

I dug out my journal from April/May 2014. That's when it was working. Instead of trying to figure out an easier (there's not one) way I'm just going to do what I was doing then. Embrace the suck, as one of my accountability partners would say.

Back at zero.
But this time I have experience of having tried and failed. Failing isn't the end of this for me, was a lesson. This time zero is a different starting point. I'm better equipped because of my experience. I'm stronger because of my experience. What will it take to see this through? Just do the work!